So it's been a long time since I last posted. I've had 2.5 weeks to think/cry over the announcements that happened within the same hour 2 Sundays ago. I'm still NOT okay with either of them, but am not feeling sick about them anymore.
1. My 22 yr old sister is pregnant.
2. My parents are separating.
I'm devastated over my sister. I don't know if it is because Brian & I are already trying to have our own kids, but I really can't even talk/look at her without wanting to cry. I wanted nothing more than for our family to be the first to do things the "right way" and now it's pretty much all ruined. I know I may sound selfish, etc.. but I really wanted to make my mom a grandma first. I feel now that if I do get pregnant it won't be as exciting because everyone will feel that I am just pregnant because my sister got pregnant. No one in our family knew we were trying yet because we wanted everything to be a surprise. The first thing my cousin said to me was "you better not get pregnant now because you have to support your sister".
I don't think I should feel this way, but I really can't help it.
That is pretty much the news I've got & AF just showed up so onto the next cycle.
3 comments:
It is perfectly okay to feel the way you are feeling, and perfectly natural. You can be there for your sister and still be upset with the circumstances. I know it doesn't feel this way right now, but the joy you and your family will feel when you do have a little one will be so great you won't have words for it - I'm praying that day comes for you and your DH when the time was right. TTC can become something that takes complete control of your thoughts and it's hard to be as happy for others as you would like when all of your thoughts are about your status. Know that I'm here for you and right there with you!
:( I'm so sorry to hear about AF. I was just going to ask you about it again. Well... another month to try!
Hang in there!
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