May flowers

I've been MIA. Here is a brief rundown of the month of May:

-my first NEO GTG. Complete with random limos and rap battling.
-First Communions
-My sister's senior prom.
-Taking my mom on her first trip outside of the United States.
-Road trip #1 to Cincinnati. Watched the Reds sweep the Indians :(
-5 days later...road trip #2...Charlotte, NC. Hung out on a lake & soaked up some rays with my fellow OU alumni.
-New car, Ford Fusion- I love it!
-Starting to TTC. It's babymaking time ;)

If I was at home I'd post sweet photos of all these events, minus the whole babymaking thing. I don't think you guys want to see pictures of that ;)

Word problems?

As soon as I pressed publish I had a co-worker come and share this story with me:

A student wanted to test out of a class (strategies, which is a basic math course). He asked "what kind of word problems" were on the test, so they were explaining it to him and he thought they were "paragraphs with the words all mixed up and you have to put them in the correct order"

Right now I need an emoticon....

Adventures in deck building

Deck building began last week. I will post pictures of the progress.

First story to share: Brian and his friend started out by renting an auger to drill holes for the posts. I was upstairs and I noticed it was quiet for awhile out back. I look out the window and see both of them staring down a hole. They got the auger stuck about 5 feet down. After an hour and a half they finally dug it out. We all think auger's should have reverse though!

I leave for the cruise with my mom in 3 days and I can't wait for a break from work. I need some relaxing by the ocean/pool/bar.

Shout-out to my girl Colleen on her 5 weeks of non-smoking. Woohoo!

Eat, Pray, Love

I have been reading this book for the past few nights. I usually read through a book quickly, but I've been pacing myself to actually stop and think during this one. While I was reading I found this to perfectly describe my mind:

"I have searched frantically for contentment for so many years in so many ways, all these acquisitions and accomplishments--they run you down in the end. Life, if you keep chasing it so hard, will drive you to death. Time--when pursued like a bandit-- will behave like one; always remaining one county or one room ahead of you, changing its name and hair color to elude you, slipping out the back door of the motel just as you're banging through the lobby with your newest search warrant, leaving only a burning cigarette in the ashtray to taunt you. At some point you have to stop because it won't. You have to admit you can't catch it. That you're not supposed to catch it. At some point, you gotta let go and sit still and allow contentment to come to you."

I am always planning things, months or years in advance. I have our budget set for the next year. I worry about EVERYTHING before it even occurs. I always want what's next, and I don't enjoy the present enough. I want to have a baby, even though I know I should enjoy the newlywed life. But I can't stop planning a pregnancy that isn't even happening yet. When I think of the next year, I always think well if I am pregnant at this time, blah blah blah.

Brian says I should be happy with what I have now, and I truly am happy. I want to live and not worry about stupid things I have no control or power over. I have to realize, I can't plan every detail of my life before it happens.

I think I have made progress, but I know I have a long way to come still.